IS IT YOU?

Here again am seated alone by the window
Thinking what to compose?
I lean outside and feel
The breeze brush past me...
The rain lashing fury on all greenery!

I hear music in the rustle of leaves
And swaying of trees
Nature's umpteenth symphony!

Then I think of you and wonder...
Are you an old friend gone asunder?
Cause of life's vicissitudes?
For when I talk to you,
I feel...
The joy of a friend
Known much longer!

DAYBREAK!

Daylight breaks,

Unwilling creatures rise from the

Folds of slumber

Whiff of morning tea wafts in...

To tickle half-awake senses

A stretch here and a pull there,

The creature descends and

Blends into the common din...

MY LAST RESORT- THE AGONY OF LOST LOVE

Here I am again after a long hiatus...want to know how I've been? I have been on Cloud Nine all these days, dreaming a new dream each day, taking in the fragrance of the early morning dew, missing a heart beat each time the first droplets of rain hit the earth, not missing the intricate details of life. I thanked each morning for the lovely day ahead, the lovely people I would be with and above all I would cherish each beat of my heart which would heave up and down and each time it would call out the same name...the name of my beloved. Oh! wasn't it a wonderful feeling! A pretty picture of fantasy and escapism was it not?

Well before I move ahead let me allow you a little peek into my world. My world has been beautiful, rosy...my life has been full of love and of friends who love, I have been happy and oh so carefree because all I learnt out of life is to love and to give. And indeed so I loved and lived...making each day worth living. I trusted, I did with my whole heart...I put on blinkers! I imagined I was reciprocated that's why no amount of hurt ever made me digress from what I so firmly believed. But my world didn't think so...it has tested me over and over again and each time I emerged victorious because I believed in 'us'. But if I somewhere say "every cloud has a silver lining" I would also say, "every silver lining has a dark cloud". My world, my sunshine did not trust me enough! And all I wanted to do was save some hurt!
"Words, words what are mere words to do to save all hurt, save all unjust ways??" Oh! how drastically have I failed, fallen flat, gone squish squash! I am never going to welcome the sunshine now, never shall I praise a day, never shall I trust so much and never shall I ever love again!

Masquerade

Life truly is a masquerade
A masquerade of funny masks
Of scary masks and sad masks
And funny eh?

Man wears a mask
To conceal a volcano within
The lava of boiling emotions
Plugged merely by a paper face
Truly funny eh?

Happy mask while hurt
Is gleefully at the heart gnawing
Sad mask to respect the dead
While the mind anxiously
Thinks of the red dress on display
Scary masks to scare wits
While inside you alone
Are threatened to bits!

Life truly is a masquerade
Each running to clutch a mask
To find shelter behind
Nothing but mere paper
Really funny eh?

HATHAT KAHAA HARAYO?

Surya udayo
Mirmirey bihani lyayo
Naya aasha ani umanga jagayo
Aaha! Tara hathat mero manma
Yo kasto shunyata chhayo?

Nilo gaganma pheri kaalo baadal chhayo
Dinle ghoom odejhai
Adhyaro kaalo badal chhayo
Jhariley bajrapaat, hahakaar machayo
Mero jiwanko abhinna anga
Hathat! Kahaa harayo?

Sadhai haath thaamnechhu bhanethey
Timilai marmadekhi bachauchhu bhanethey
Sadaiwa shital chhaya dinchhu bhanethey
Tara aaja hathat ma eklo bhaye
Baacha bandhan sabai tootey
Hera aaja ma pheri eklo bhaye, eklo bhaye!

I am but a human

I AM BUT A HUMAN

Wish I could life endure
Endure all virtue and vice alike
Wish I could endure the wait
Endure what the heart expects.

Wish I could endure the miles
Endure all the hurt that piles
Wish I could endure the time that chimes
Endure all the changing climes.

But am a human
Who loves and hates
Mind says – nay u shall endure
But the heart says –
Wait is there a cure?

Am a human
What more can I endure?
What more hurt can time cure?

For Thulo Ama...a prologue

Life is a precious gift. You mould it, you mend it, you bend it the way you desire and the way it has been written for you by the unknown force. During your lifetime, you venture out into several journeys - that of soul searching, in search of luxury, in search of peace and in more pragmatic terms, in search of a better livelihood, a better society. This prologue is yet another journey...a journey into the life of an ordinary woman but with extraordinary endurance, determination and grit. This is the journey made by my Thulo Ama, my maternal grandmother, an epitome of discipline, love, affection and above all courage. This may seem a very ordinary story, instances which may have been a part of anybody's life but this is what I intend to share, an ordinary, everyday story. There are others who write about torment, war, romance, discrimination, life extraordinaire BUT I beg to differ and bring to you a common story but through my eyes, my perception. So welcome to this sojourn.